010 - Balancing Ambition with Intuition

Unfinished things bother me.

I think this is because in the past, I’ve had a multitude of passions that fleeted in and out my life, changing as quick as the Tasmanian weather.

That was until I began writing. The dedication to finishing a book is a hard thing to master. But, there is something in it that brings me to life, and so I persist.

I often berate myself for all the other unfinished projects and ideas I have, sitting in the notes app or scribbled in journals. Some started, some with full shape but not finessed, others just a notion of what could be.

So when I had the thought to stop a particular dream of mine, I resisted.

“Stop being so flakey. Put your big girls pants on and get it down. You just need to hustle.”

That’s what I told myself. But I was wrong.

I got stuck on the private hamster wheel I created for myself. Dreaming all the things and quietly working towards ALL OF IT. Resistant to be a quitter.

But then I paused. I looked at my life and saw something else…

I’d been writing more. And noticed what came with it: Peace. Joy. Growth.

And I realised I’m not quitting. I’m choosing presence. I’m choosing devotion. I’m choosing to honour the one dream that’s lighting me up right now.

It’s okay to release dreams. It’s not giving up. It’s pivoting towards what lights you up. It’s reaching for the growth, instead of the plateau.

And while, I will argue the plateau is a needed phase in life, it’s important to notice when it’s stagnated and time to move on.

The latest, and maybe last podcast episode is my goodbye… for now. A reflection on intuition, ambition, and letting go with grace.